Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Mind of her own ! (Part I)




They had first met in class sixth at DTEA Mandir Marg, and after overcoming the initial repellent tenacity and sexual differences caused by culture, proceeded to become thick friends. They had bloomed together, she first and him later. He is the innocent one of the two and she was smarter. He was naive and brash while she was mature. He was poor and directionless in academics whereas she remained a hardworking topper. He was a boy and she was a woman. He was a lame rogue and she was the school’s sweetheart, but between them they were the best of friends.

Boys fell over in a heap when she smiled. They worked hard for her attention. When they failed they spat venoms of boyhood jealousy on Joe, Keerthi’s object of affection. They loved hanging out together and delighted on each other’s lunch boxes. They were possessive about each other and were upset when the other one was punished in school. She helped him in academics and he bought her favourite ice creams.

She always wanted to be a doctor. She said she dreamt of curing people and relieving people of their distress. Her parents supported her completely and motivated her towards achieving it. He wanted to be many things. A pilot, a lawyer, a cricketer, a tennis player, and at one point a porn star and later a porn movie director.

It was in class eleven that they decided to call it love. They both felt the peer pressure to have a boyfriend and a girlfriend. After he expressed his fancy for a few girls, she thought it was best for them to be a couple. Joe was happy and confused; it was all new for him. He trusted his best friend and went on. In love, she showed him the most beautiful things that he ever wanted to see. She thought she was madly in love with him. She also made him think that he was madly in love with her. He was then truly in love with Keerthi.

Steadily in love and companionship, Keerthi inculcated in Joe a desire to choose medicine as a career. He decided to become a Doctor. He had never been a diligent student all his life. This sudden introduction to hard work and commitment in love was taking a toll on him but he was enjoying it. The sudden rise of focus and a clear aim in life thrilled him. Alas, Joe’s results were mediocre. His efforts weren’t bearing fruit and this distressed him. He was just not good enough to hit the MBBS grade. That didn’t stop him from dreaming about going to his favourite medical school along with Keerthi.

The exams and the exhaustive coaching meant very little time together for both of them. She was perfectly engrossed in it whereas he was growing into a man and exploring it. He was feeling the need, the desire for his completion, the closeness, the subtlety, the security, the poise and he felt the urge more and more by each passing day.

In their moments of closeness as a man and a woman, Joe pleasured in blowing away Keerthi’s falling locks off her face. He pleased himself when she gave out a full smile, full of happiness, adorned by her sensuous lips. He held her palm in his and got lost in dream land during the lectures. On one occasion he nodded off into the shoulders of another girl seated next to him only to be awakened by Keerthi’s laughter. He loved it. He loved to see her laugh. Those made him feel manly. She was a figurine full of focus and concentration during the lectures.

Towards the end of class twelve, Keerthi was moving away from Joe. Joe was puzzled by Keerthi’s behaviour. Joe’s poor results and apathy from Keerthi pushed him further down in his academic pursuit. He fared poorly in the boards and failed the medical entrance examinations. Keerthi topped the school and secured a seat at Lady Harding medical college. She remained the star that she was at school and everyone was proud of her. Joe was proud too. Joe gifted her with a stethoscope.

Joe felt that something was wrong. He deciphered that there was more than exam stress and career competition in percolation between him and Keerthi. All this while, his growth as a man had multiplied manifold and he was missing Keerthi. He desired her all the more as she moved away from him. His male friends’ company was driving him more and more towards losing his moral uprightness and he was inclined to do it with Keerthi. He resorted to dreaming about her to forget about the academic muck that he was breathing in.

One evening after the showers had given Delhi a reason to celebrate; Joe met Keerthi in a common friends place. The chilly wind blowing across the green belt had left Joe on a high during his drive down to Karol Bagh. Keerthi looked happy and beautiful. The dark circles had disappeared and the magic in her face was back, alive, kicking and dripping. Jay’s mind was happy to look at her and he went on looking at her. They strolled down together with the common friend to have chai and pakora at a road side stall.

Back at the friend’s place Joe was itching to get closer to Keerthi. It had been ages since their bodies have touched one another. He wanted to experience it fully now. Although Keerthi’s indifferent behaviour angered him, her presence in his vicinity annihilated every iota of negativity that his mind ever mustered to brew. He was crazily in love.

In a moment of solitude Joe went near Keerthi and blew her hair apart. She gave him a sour smile. Joe knew instantly that it was not the Keerthi that he loved. He felt her breathing and went closer to her lips. She realised the situation and sternly said, “No Joe, Please stay away.” In his truly mad mind, Keerthi was all his. He went ahead and kissed her lips. She pushed him back and promptly shouted for help.

Joe fell back on the ground. He was blank and numb. All he could see was darkness as he lay there, devoured, on the floor. He felt some hard muscle power as he was bashed out of the house. He lay there on the door and then the gate, speechless and expressionless. He was staring at the impossible and rolling on the black floors of love, hatred, anger and deception.

It took him more than a year to recuperate partly from this emotional mishap. He then went ahead to study biotechnology at a faraway land. He was trying his best to clobber the anger that he felt for her. In his moments of weakness and disgrace, he wrote to her seeking an explanation for her behaviour and the history that they had in union. He didn’t get a reply. He didn’t want to knock at her residence because her parents had threatened to file a case against him for molesting their daughter.

Joe thought on. He wondered about the reasons that probably led Keerthi to behave like that. He wondered,'Was she in love?', 'Was the whole episode of love and affection a farce?', 'Can human beings be trusted?', 'Was she hiding something from me?', 'Were her parents behind all this?'. He hated human beings. He hated her. He felt angered by his own innocence and meekness. He was frustrated by her memories that haunted him. He was furious at the negative thoughts that pulled his confidence down. Eventually, Joe was healed by time and he moved on. He decided to build his life anew and enjoy every moment of it.

One day, lying on his bed in his hostel room, a thought crossed Joe’s mind. “She has a mind of her own”.

21 comments:

Joe said...

I see tht ,this Jay(jayant) is a complete rogue,fool ,stupid and insane....I would thank god tht keerthi was intelligent to foresee what he was.He is such a big *******,tht he tries to impose his feelings on other.My advice for him would be,Awesome!that u escaped from experiencing one of the worst prisons in delhi,Better not try this again in life.And try to check out the meaning of "manly" in a good dictionary.

The abstract scientist said...

dei, idiot, they were in love da.

The abstract scientist said...

btw Jay is a completely fictional character, believe it or not. I am becoming a big time writer na?

ki said...

Ahem. This is some intense story. :)

joe said...

Hahahaha...Where do u get these ideas from???Bro,this story won't sell even if ,u change the name of main character to "Steve jobs" or "Adolf hitler".Dude, the main character is disgusting. u call this as love??? u got to be kidding mate.Atleast according to me ,a gal throwing away a boy she loved, for a career ,money or for the most important reason in world is never possible.If one does ,She never belongs to group of angels created by god called "women".V can It(not her) *****. I feel, u still don't understand "love",even after the ordeals u have come across.

joe said...
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The abstract scientist said...

@Ki, yes it is, It has a part 2 that is coming up

The abstract scientist said...

@Joe, which is the character you didnt like? The boy or the girl.
Btw I thought Jay sounded better with Keerthi.

joe said...

"Love is neither created nor destroyed, but can be transformed from a person to other".So,wait until someone transforms ur lyf into love :-)

joe said...

Jay is worse than keerthi.

The abstract scientist said...

hahaha, so on the whole you do not like my writing???

Joe said...

NO bro,I like da way you narrate(screen play),But not the original story(movie).Moreover,How can i dislike ur blog,I have set it as my Homepage.

The abstract scientist said...

dei, thanx da, i am writing second part da, tell me after that, may be you will like it. Lets see.

joe said...

Alryt,I'm waiting for your second part...

V said...

a mind of her own combined with the wonderfull process of "evolution"(which also happens to be my favorite word)

Ri said...

when is ur second part coming??
it seems u finally got some readers for ur blog!!!
so i am relieved frm my duty now??

The abstract scientist said...

no no, u can never be relieved of your duties. I will always call you and bug you to read whatever I write come what may.

Ankita said...

i havent still made up my mind about this one..so i wud pass on this but bcoz u wud kill me so i wud say something about it....i like the way u develop ur characters and and way u describe their relation..it is so relatable..(if that is a word.. ;))
but about the story..i think that is also kinda true..but the angle of love and lust still confuses me...i need more time to think about it..till then hopefully u will have ur second part there as well..

The Avalanche said...

Is this story motivated by some old time real life incidence??

Coz there are too many similarities for it to be a fiction...

great job dude...keeep up the good work...

Lakshmi said...

Tht was brilliant... I loved it... mayb not the part where he tries to make a move on her.. but thts typical of a guy..very much normal.. apart frm tht.. I give u 5 stars... n sumwhere... sumwhr.. in btwn the lines.. I cud relate to it... in ways I cant explain...
I really liked it a lot..
Is this plain fiction or is there sum truth to it???

The abstract scientist said...

There is not much truth in it other than the fact thaat everyone feels deceit when their school friends move away from them after college. I webbed it into romance.